Fear is a foe to Power - I know. Still fear is sneaking around me lately. First unnoticed by my talker, now coming upward. It is filling my mind, leaving me with a weird feeling that is not powerlessness in general. I do have Power. I can do things, I can bring forth change. Though how good is my Power when it stands alone? If there is not the support by a (human) community in changing subjects that are bigger than just me? Even bigger then the relatively few like-minded souls around me?
The Bachelor/Master-system (newly imposed upon our universities three years ago) and the 700 € twice a year expected to be paid by me for merely attending university are really starting to freak me out. I already lost my BaföG (stately provided financial aid for students of low-income parents), because I am not studying fast enough compared to the (completely unrealistic) standards of the new system. Instead of the favored 3 years I will need at least 3 1/2 if not 4 - and I am panicking that even this time might be too short (and that I will be stuck in this damned town forever). Why? Without the financial aid system helping me out I am forced to work throughout my studies to pay the rent and get some food - let alone the 2 x 700€ to buy my right for education. It's grotesque.
There are political and social movements forming to transform if not reject the new system altogether - but we are still few and even we are struggling to find time beside work and university to demonstrate. Even we are afraid of being expelled from the university for not going to a class, let alone blockading a building.

All this pressure is just growing, pulling my shoulders to the ground. The more I work the less time I have for my studies. The longer I study the higher the fees for studying are getting. The more I demonstrate, the less time I have for studies or work. As I said: It's freaking me out and I know less and less how to handle it.

Hey everyone,

last weekend I facilitated a workshop about "Power, Consensus and Group Structures" called "You, the tree in the forest". It was the first time that I facilitated a workshop for a whole weekend all by myself - and it worked out perfectly! I was a little bit nervous at the beginning, especially since I planed to include some tools like "fantasy-travels" which are not that popular in political culture over here (folks usually engage in religion or politics - they don't mix). In the end everyone was more that willing to stretch beyond their comfort zones and I am very proud about the people leaving my workshop inspired and refreshed. I got lots of positive feedback and there are invitation to other cities already, wanting me to facilitate likely workshops there.

One thing about the whole process and the feedback made me very proud, since I used to be quiet a control freak when I was younger, especially in groups. Always being the one who needed to be in control, guiding and focusing the group. This habit is no longer in my system. I can trust in the process and go with the flow of the group. I can ride the currents, I don't have to dictate them. I can be in my Power and let others emerge in their own. This is beauty-full.

I am existed where this road leads to.
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Gwydion

Yesterday I gathered with some other witches and we scryed for the future potentials and patterns of Reclaiming, paganism and society in general. What got through my chanel was basically this: 

"The Earth is still the center and should become even more so. It is through the Earth, that is our Mother, that we are all linked together as siblings. It is though the Earth that differences of tradition and style will be overcome. We are all sisters and brothers through Her. We are Her manifested Self as the Earth Herself is manifested Spirit."

At least for my personal life it is true, that I was far too concerned about "spiritual evolution", "cosmic order" and "spiritual planes" lately. It is this Earth, this plane and the here and now that I want to be more concerned about from now on. After all, there is no future if we fail to meet the tasks at hand vigorously. The environmental and social crises do not wait for us to find solutions for. It is the Earth and actual society, physical relationships and environmental concerns that were a strong basis for a growing paganism years ago - they still can be and shall be in my Work. I have chosen this body-life for a reason.

Happy Samhain, Dia de los Muertos and Ahnenfest to everyone! May we find peace and reunion, may our hearts rejoice in feasting!

Blessings,
Gwydion


PS: Even my Lutherian mother called to ask when to ignite the candles and put out the food. It's so beautiful to see how much peace we have found finally.

Hey all of you!

If you cannot join the UN Climate Summit in December, you might want to send a digital representative (and have fun creating one! ;)): http://www.action-pact.org/

Blessings,
Gwydion

Hey there,

it took me some time to acclimate myself. I feel very different since I came from Feri Camp and some of the processes I am currently involved in are quiet pattern-shifting as well. I ask for it, because I prefer drama over tedium. I want change and evolution. I am hardly resting, even if Fetch wants to. Now that university and my tutoring job started again last week there are even more concerns and demands to deal with. I do not complain, because I basically have everything I wanted and asked for. It is just enormously challenging to pack this abundance into a tiny box like a time schedule for exemple. Sometimes it feels like the attempt to collect water with a strainer. It just doesn't work. If I want it to work - and I do! - I have to slow down and set binding priorities. I have to face the truth of what feeds me and what drains me and act accordingly. This is Self-Love and it is hard work for me. I am (still) not used to prioritize my own happiness and well-being. I am not used to being so popular that I have to decide what friendships and relationships to nourish and which ones to sacrifice on the altar of Selfhood. Though the fact that I am not used to doing such things doesn't matter. If I want to be the one in charge of my time, visions and resources, to do so is my choice.

Some Beauty to share as well (I am completely in Love with Van Gogh's art at the moment):



Blessings to you! May you know Beauty and Strength in your struggles!
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Gwydion

PS: I will give a weekend workshop about Power and Consensus in some weeks and am planing to watch a related movie at one evening then. Any suggestions for one? I find it really hard to find a movie that displays true Power. Most focus just on misuse or promote power-concepts I don''t buy.

Lust

Looking in your old, green eyes,
my name can be forgotten, ´cause you know.
Your fingers play the melody of angels
on my souls and flesh, make me let go.

Make me swim in chaos, which is your song,
let me be weak and let me stay strong.
My eyes are lifted to the light of the stars,
which floods all my souls with wonder

and sweet inspiration riding my blood,
filling my gut
with lust.

Alternatives

My lips are not made for staying silent,
my hips are not made for standing still.
My voice wasn't made for telling lies,
my hands were not made for shooting guns.

The waters of life do run through my body,
the waters of life do rise in my cock,
the sweetness of life drips down from it's ending,
the waters of life drip down from my skin.

My body has risen to walk down the line,
to swin in the waters, to follow it's call.
How can I resist what my body is singing?
The Peacock has given no other way to go.

Mother Earth needs cool solutions! We are in this together.

Green power, recycling, bicycles, ... - should be manageable.

"And if you live and die with a deep sense of disconnection, I might feel sad, but it will also be your choice. If you live and die with a deep sense of connection, I don't really care what name you give it." by yezida

That is just beauty-full and I want to keep it in mind.
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Gwydion

I finally have found, charged and blessed my wand, tool of air and east. May is aid clear communication and fertile visions!
It is made of rowan, which is sacred to the Fae and my name patron Gwydion. Attached to it are white feathers from "my" park, bells to invoke and the crystal that crowned all of my wands yet.

Hi folks,

as only few of you will know I am not just a college student but a professional Feng Shui Consultant as well. Lately I was just working for some closer friends and family, but now would like to expand my services further. If you (or your friends) are interested in an analysis of your home or would like to gift this to a special someone, I would be honored to offer my knowledge and professional advise to you.


What is Feng Shui?

Feng Shui, literally meaning Wind and Water, is the traditional Chinese art and science of creating a healthy, sound and lucky home. Feng Shui uses the natural properties of your surrounding and environment to increase the flow of life force and success in your life. Following traditional lore natural prosperity can only manifest where the flow of life force is clear and strong and adjusted to the specific needs of the individual. Not every person has the same needs and desires, not every place holds the same properties. Therefore it is extremely important not to follow generalized solutions, but to seek professional and individual help to unlock the potential of the place you live in.


How can Feng Shui influence your life?

Good luck comes in when the individual puts herself in harmony with the universal flow. Feng Shui can help to open the gates to that flow and adjust it's energies to support your health, relationships and success in all areas of life. It can loose energetic blocks and transform ill-making constellations in your living space. By turning your home into a place that is vibrant with life force you can bring vitality back into your life.


What Feng Shui is not

Feng Shui is not bound to any religious system, though many of it's concepts are inspired by daoism. Even if it's Chinese in origin, you are most likely not asked by a Feng Shui Consultant to give your home the look of  a Chinese restaurant. Feng Shui is natural and beautiful. If given solutions don't fit the aesthetics and style of a person, it can not be considered good Feng Shui.


If you are interested in a detailed FS-analysis of your living space send me a pm and we can see what I can do for YOU!

Greetings,
Gwydion

"Be as thou was wont to be,
see as thou was wont to see."

- from Sharespear's "Midsummernight's Dream"

Could be used as an invocation for Selfhood and blackheartedness, I think.
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Gwydion

Inspired by a comment of anaar :

Wu Wei

A plant does not flee from Darkness,
but reaches for the light it needs
out of it's own Black Heart.


EuroFeriCamp was great (in general)!

Blessings,
Gwydion

Fairies awake, fetch me that flower!

Hey folks,

I am nearly off for my trip throughout northern Germany ending with "Feriland" aka EuroFeriCamp *yay*. I have far too much stuff packed and am existed to see many of you sooooooon!!! :)

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Gwydion 

Thanks for this! Can't wait to watch it.

Hi folks,

I am back in many different ways and still gathering my parts together. I am no longer running but drowning - and I like that.

Spending time at home was first stressful, but very nice in the end. I can be my Self - no desire nor need to hide. I somehow lost parts of me in the last two years in a struggle to fit in I thought I would be done with years ago. I wasn't, but don't feel like playing that role again. I found some sort of Strength I forgot about. I found my Desire, rooting seeds. I want to take care of them, to be shameless and strong.

The demonstration against nuclearpower last Saterday was quiet big with more than 50 000 people who drummed, danced, laughed and sung for our future (impressions are here and here). Nuclear-free we shall be. May the elections this month (when Germany will choose it's new goverment) bring the changes we need for an effective climate protection and a sustainable life style. If it does or doesn't, may we be the change we are waiting for.

4Germans: Feel free to sign here for a nuclear-free future & to invite others to do so as well!

Blessings,
Rose


PS: Hippies are so f***ing SEXY!!!

I never realiced that Tarot contains at least seven different cards saying "Let go. Let go more. Move on." Underword I'm coming.
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Gwydion